Waiting ...

So much of the healing process for a heart baby is just waiting ... Waiting to ween off meds, waiting to start feeds, waiting to get stronger. Today we wait on the ventilator. Stella's doctors want to give her one more day to eat, rest, and practice breathing before they extubate. To say I was disappointed this morning would be an understatement (cue the crying, postpartum, sleep deprived mother). But I know that ultimately the decision is up to Stella, her doctors, and in God's hands.

I pray she has an uneventful day and night and is ready to roll in the morning! Having patience and listening to a team of strangers tell you what is best for your child is taxing - I swing between overwhelming gratitude for the wisdom of these brilliant doctors, to hating them for knowing better that I do about what Stella needs. I know in the long run its just another 24 hours, but darn-it, I wanted to hold her.

You are worth the wait, Stella! One more day!